You don't always have to share your goals, desires, or manifestations with everyone. Even people you think are in your corner will not always have your best interests at heart or can irresponsibly share your manifestations with those in the world who do not. Jealousy can seep in and destroy everything you've manifested. As they say "never let the right hand know what the left hand is doing".

6 months ago before loosing 50 lbs and getting back to my sexy self lol

Just know that in this day and age of awakening there are a lot of us who are out there that vibrate on the same frequency as you. You're not alone though there will be times in your journey where you will feel out of place with society. That is just simply you breaking away from the matrix but you'll soon find out there are others who have broken away as well. Those others will become and makeup your new spiritual family. Stay strong and continue to dive deep. Accumulate as much knowledge and wisdom as you can and when the time comes you'll be able to share alongside your spiritual family versus being a vampire and taking from your family with nothing to offer.